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The Hastang experience is incomplete without the lyrics.
- Bonita Marie Cabiles

OBLIVION

Lyrics by Julie Ann Yan Redoble
Music & Arrangement by Hastang

She braves the dusk this lone night
Haunted by demons of sight
As wearied men, worn bodies
Stoop over remnants of old
Burning petals of despair
Flames soar, their stories unfold

She floats like the embers of strangers
Lost in antique reels and torn pages
Of hope lost and lives spent in cages
She braves the past tonight
Searching for oblivion

Faces passing through the cold
Deviant lives fitting one mold
She trails nostalgia in a gasp
Savors the anguish in her grasp
Reeking of panic and gloom
In the bonfire, she’s entombed

She searches for answers
She seeks her own refuge
She finds remedy in obscurity
She surrenders to…oblivion

Mid-Flight

Lyrics by Julie Ann Yan Redoble
Music & Arrangement by Hastang

My life is two parallel lines,
converging in deluded minds
It is a ladder ever ascending,
a zenith always hidden from sight

Like a golden ray of sun,
a deflected and shattered light
A subtle blossom without petals
a bird incapable of flight

Is there no hope for this weary soul,
stuck forever in this mundane role?
Is there no end to mediocrity?
From this dark pit, I need to flee.
Is there no escape for the flaw that is me?

From these old strings, I need to break free.
For once, I just want to be free.

My life is the cold moon at morn
a flimsy floating obsolete
It is a stray yellow balloon
that fled from one child’s puny grip
Average rose in a vibrant bed
a gray streak in a rainbow sheet
Gnawed nails on a shapely hand
a red flake in a furious sleet

I had been adrift for so long.
I painted these gray skies on my own.
Now, I have nothing.
I am no one.
I am simply an abstraction of form.
Someday, you’ll see.
My back will grow wings.
My embers will blaze.
And I shall be free.

When Misery Speaks

Lyrics by Julie Ann Yan Redoble
Music and Arrangement by Hastang

When Misery speaks, her voice is hollow and cold
When Misery speaks, her voice is hollow and cold
It reverberates like a single tear dropping
It echoes like footfalls leaving, fading
It hisses like the last flicker dying

Listen, I hear Misery speak
She’s snared me in a paralysis of her own design
She’s imprisoned me in the darkness of my mind
I cover my ears with sheets of hope
I block her out with Dream’s dark cloak
…But still, I hear Misery speak

When Misery speaks, her voice is hoarse and low
When Misery speaks, her voice is hoarse and low
It pierces with a savage, primitive chanting
It shatters like splinters of a spirit breaking
It plunges like a blunt blade in one lethal blow

Listen, I hear Misery sing.
Hear the pulsing of distant drums,
The strumming of ancient guitars
She sings her discord to the stars
She sings. She sings.
She sings to me.

Listen…

Random

Lyrics by Julie Ann Yan Redoble
Music by Hastang

I don’t have a name
–at least not one you should know
Spare me the small talk,
pretense is lost here tonight
Just savor this moment
in the flickering light

I don’t have a story
–at least not one I can share
Don’t get to know me,
just give me what I need
Sate yourself, take your fill,
consume my greed

I don’t have a reason
–at least not one to be told
I’m here coz in the furnace
I still am cold
This is a fleeting tangle
in a meaningless fold

In a random, fleeting moment,
Your body will fill mine,
Your touch will sate me,
And in that one fleeting moment,
Perhaps the emptiness will cave in on its own

I don’t have regrets
– at least not one you can see
A simple indulgence
of this hunger in me
You are random,
a release for the moment
One last kiss, leave now,
end this torment

Plot of My Revenge

Lyrics by Julie Ann Yan Redoble
Music & Arrangement by Hastang

This here is the plot of my revenge.

I will rise from the depths of this crater,
Crawl into the sunshine with head held high;
Embrace the dawn with an imperial poise;
Soon this crumbling wall, I shall fortify.

This is the plot of my revenge.

I will bury this cast-off soul,
And wake the goddess within me.
Free myself from this anguished role.
Divine searing flame, I will be.

That is my revenge.

That is my revenge.

I will be a shrine of cunning desire.
You’re a figment of my non-existent past,
Reduced to tiny specks of tarnished dust.
To the ends of black void, you will be cast.

This is the plot of my revenge.

I’ve become a ghost in your past,
A memory, a shadow of what once was.

But this woman will have her revenge.

I will have my revenge…

I will have my revenge.

Old Lovers’ Mantra

Lyrics by Julie Ann Yan Redoble
Music and Arrangement by Hastang

I whisper a mantra to the rain,
a mantra of lips on a soft cheek.

Echoing the sounds of nostalgia.
or the rustling of an empty bed.

I repeat this mantra,
an incantation of pain,
an anguished plea for release,
a spell to vanquish…

(chanting)

I recite a mantra to the rain,
a rhythmic, pulsating chanting.
Riding the beats of a frantic pulse,
frenzied like bodies melting in the dark.

I murmur a mantra to the rain,
a mantra slow and wary,
like a leaf dropping on a windless day
or a name lost in the incessant fray…

I whisper a mantra to the rain,
the silent mantra of a heart letting go.
Like the empty sounds of a last farewell,
or the distant echoes of a final kiss

Waiting for Murray

Lyrics by Tessa Manto and Julie Ann Yan Redoble
Music & Arrangement by Hastang

You said you’d talk to me today,
Face to face, when the day ends.
You said you wanna see me today
in that place, where the shadows bend

I wait and still there’s no sign of you,
my patience stretched to its limit.
Alone in silence, enveloped by your absence.
Oh where has the day gone …

If this is love, why not surrender;
Why not give in and begin?
If this is love, why not come over;
Let’s talk it over tonight

Maybe this isn’t how I thought this would be;
Maybe you’re just not brave enough to fight for me…

I lie awake
and see your face;
My life was primed for this moment,
all paths leading to this day.

But now the day has come,
And I’ve become undone…

If this is love, why not surrender;
Why not give in and begin?
If this is love, why not come over;
Let’s talk it over tonight.

Maybe today, I’ll finally see
That this day will never be…

Never be…

Never be…

Never be.

Guileless

Lyrics by Genee Lou Nuñez
Music and Arrangement by Hastang

I stand in a place where chaos dominates
Anxiety is prevailing, passions are conflicting

I sit in a chair, hearing their despair.
I refuse to understand
the collective longing of this land.

I quiver in spasms, a private sarcasm.
Replete in seclusion, defying intrusion.
Oh, life is chaotic, but I am ecstatic.

I lie on my bed, thinking of what others said.
Madness fed by insecurity,
lives run by aching lunacy.

A world governed by lust.
This desire, I can’t trust.
Wanton abandon is an insanity.
Liberate me from insatiability.

I will keep my purity.
I will keep my sanity.
I am all I need.
I am all I need.
I am all I need.

Deep Descent

Lyrics by Tessa Manto
Music & Arrangement by Hastang

When we met,
I hated your very sight.
You were incapable of love,
Obnoxious and proud,
You didn’t give a damn.

As time passed
I saw something
That made me look again
And made me realize
that I was wrong
I misjudged you

Oh …

Slowly,
Can’t you see I’m falling
Every time I see your shadow
Deep inside, my heart is melting
Don’t fall so deep
I was falling

You were trying hard
to push me away
I’m falling fast
And I’m aching
So hard, so deep

Now you’re here
You’re here with me
And I can’t believe
How good you make me feel
And now I find myself
Wanting more of you

Holding me
Kissing me
And caressing me
Making me do things
I never would
I never thought
We’d come this far

Oh …

I think that this should end
I think that we should never be together again
I don’t want to deny what I feel inside
But it’s wrong
So wrong to want you.

Everyday, I tell myself
That there’s no way for us to go on

Everyday, I tell myself
Don’t fall too deep
I was falling

You were trying hard
to push me away
I’m falling fast
And I’m aching

So hard, so deep

So deep

So deep

Drowned

Lyrics by Tessa Manto
Music & Arrangement by Hastang

You were never here
you were always out
you were always running from the one you love
I was always careful
I was never wrong
But I let you in my world
Never even cared
Never even dared
Don’t know what you said
now you’re in my head
further to my bed
never felt so scared

and I can’t stop this now
can’t fight it now
what I’m feeling for you
I can’t help myself
I’m drowned again
I’m intoxicated with you

Now we’re all alone
in this haunted room
and we try to do what we desire
I was here for love
you were here for lust
It was never right for both of us

This wrong feeling I tried hard to hide
now it’s out i feel lost and drowned
I have never felt so wrong in my life

Ghost of My Waking

Lyrics by Julie Ann Yan Redoble
Music & Arrangement by Hastang

You live in my dreams,
But I have no power
to conjure you in my waking.
You rule my fears,
there are no defenses
when you assault my senses.

In the fathoms of your eyes is
the irony of my demise.
You are lord of my dreams,
and ghost of my waking.

You are lord of my dreams,
and ghost of my waking.
You are the essence,
the purpose of my being.

You’re a stranger I’ve known
since the onset of time
before gods were born.
I relinquish my soul
to the visions you’ve spawned,
the epiphanies of illusion.

You are lord of my dreams,
and ghost of my waking.
And together, we will weave
the strands of meaning.